o n e v o i c e walking on broken glass

~~~

2005-10-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

my phone is soooo screwed up.. it switches on to a blank screen. finally i got a new phone. thanks to my dearie sister sheryl.

went to town today, it was like meet your friends in town day or sth. i saw candice shopping with her sister...not that i was surprised to see her in town or anything la... that shopaholic. hahaha... then i saw gg, and totally sabo-ed her into having to get some totally girly get up for some dinner (i think..??) sorry gg... i love youuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!! haha....

my cuzzie stacy is coming down on friday.. i miss her so!! i think im gonna make her a pair of earrings!! cant wait!! we're gonna cook together!! haha.. yea.. we're the foodies!!

~~

2005-10-13T14:39:00.000+08:00

school unofficially starts next week... DRP
Differential research programme.
linda wants to work with ros, so im gonna work with JH. JH's fun.
i have so much work to do for the end year concert. does anyone want to offer their services??
i need to go to geylang and arab street to search for cloth, bras basah complex and concourse for face paints and such. and not to mention the props. MARK I NEED THE SCRIPT!!!!!!!
wanted to go to arab street and geylang today cos tmr's friday and it will be SOOOOO CROWDED. but since im not feeling well, i'll rest today and go on monday.
today i'll stay home and make PIZZA!!!
gonna make the dough from scratch. we'll have hawaiian and beef curry pizza. yummy :) haha. i love pizza. anyone wants pizza?? haha.... i'll tell ya if i have extra.

2005-09-27T23:05:00.001+08:00

SFX youth choir performance at the vatican relics showcase in the Asian Civilisation Museum on 2nd october

Songs we'll be singing
1. He's Calling my Name
2. Gabriel's Message
3. Exultate Deo
4. Festive Alleluia
5. Cantate Domino
6. Hail Holy Queen -- God Will Make a Way
7. Were You There
8. Mozart's Ave Verum Corpus
9. Behold the Lamb
10. When You Believe
11. Panis Angelicus
12. Waiting for the Light
13. O Holy Night with soloist Lydia Tan
14. O Happy Day with soloist Cheryl Lee

Please come and support us at our last performance at ACM!

yo momma

2005-09-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

yo momma jokes... a little light humour

yo momma so ugly, your father takes her to work so that he doesn't have to kiss her goodbye

yo momma so fat people jog around her for exercise

yo momma so stupid it took her 2 hours to watch 60 minutes

yo momma so poor she can't afford to pay attention

yo momma so old she has a picture of moses in her yearbook

yo momma so old she was a waitress at the last supper

yo momma so old i told her to act her own age and she died

finally

2005-09-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over!! yet im still so busy with school and church. oh well...

i just baked brownies today... tried a low fat recipe.. but it tastes healthy... im gonna try alter it a bit and see if i can get a better taste :)

rain rain go away............. sigh....... the countdown to results begins.... 4 more days to go. but in the meantime... im making earrings... or at least trying.... haha....

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until i blog again.....

...

2005-07-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

....................

2005-07-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

ok.... results are starting to come back and MINE SUCKS!!!
had 11 marks of careless mistakes for FI which like brought me down 4 grades from an A to a C which REALLY SUCKS!! and Catering well i was happy i passed.. above average.. hahaha...
poly life is full of projects and work....
oh ya, i just turned 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the legal age for drinking and driving... just not at the same time.... it was ok i guess... my sis is paying for my driving lessons so... wooo hooo!! signed up and my basic test date is aug 25... countdown.....
thanks friends, for all the well wishes....
wheee... ok.. back to reality... back to work.... busybusybusy

yikes

2005-07-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

the countdown....
3 papers down....
2 more to go......
2 days to starting project work....
5 days to a special day....
yippie....

...

2005-05-16T09:09:00.000+08:00

its been so long still i blogged... oh well... been so busy with the project... which i still havent finished.. prob wun blog again till school starts...
the day before sucked...
yesterday sucked...
today sucks....
my life is getting worse and worse each day...
urgh..........

VN HCMC

2005-05-03T11:42:00.000+08:00

xin chao.

vietnam.
ho chi minh!
saigon.
i miss you.
cu chi tunnel,
amazing.
the museums,
the experiences,
the people,
no words can express the feelings that i have felt during my trip.

the students from HUI and IU,
the children from the orphanage,
our wonderful tour guide hien,
you have all touched my heart
with the sincerity and enthusiasm within you all
the motorbike ride without a helmet on
exhilarating.
thanks for taking me on it!

T01
despite differences
we share a bond
my brothers
thanks for taking care of your sick sister in VN
i will never forget
the wonderful things that happened

cam on
chao tam biet

woah...

2005-04-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

double happiness for 3/8 02' & 4/8 03'!!

1. our dear swathi turned 18 today!!! she is now legal to go clubbing and drink alcohol. i can no longer nag at her. damn! haha. we went to her house for very fattening food and i was so full i didn't even have the blackforest cake!!!! (totally regretting that now...) so anyway... just putting this in cos swathi asked me to put it in my blog.. haha.. but really had fun seeing everyone!!

2. at swathi's party today, sharifah announced her ENGAGEMENT!!!!!! can you believe it? haha... although we practically feel that their married anyway... so... congratulations guys!!!!!!!!

anyway.. super tired now. blog again soon...

hey all

2005-03-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

haha... hey nicolette... i just visited ur blog... u n ur scandals... u remind me of sum1.. shall not say who... you would absolutely flip.. hahaha
so anyway.. i've been addicted to 'thou art worthy'... dunno why also... keep singing it.. with my half gone voice... haha.. haven't fully recovered yet... this is so... stupid...
TO MY DEAR ALTOS IN SFXYC:
it's about time you guys realised that you need to buck up. both older ones and younger ones.... The older ones need to realise that they need to improve... even though you're good, there's such a thing as getting better?? haha... the younger ones need to understand that the older ones will not be there forever to cover you. for one this... this mummy over here is forever sick.... so... you can't count on her much la... haha... liz and joanna have to work!!! they won't be able to commit to many things... you guys just have to get your act together (by the way nicolette, you're due for voice testing anytime soon... don't you worry... haha... we'll test you first... just to prepare you a little... uncle denis is scarier)
so anyway... lumen gentium tmr.... i dunno... i gave it a shot the last time... it... didn't seem so helpful.... now we have to sing for it, so we have no choice but to go... so.... well.. i hope it will be better than the last time.... haha... gotta go sleep now... or try to... stupid body aches... i'm like an old woman... haha...

vietnam!!

2005-03-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

yay!! i am going to vietnam!! ho chi minh city... so fun! haha... i'm going to get myself one of those nice vietnamese costume thingies!! yay! haha...
went to school to do global citizenship project. looks like it's not so easy after all... haha... so many things to do. initially we wanted to change our topic, but after calling miss marie chan, ida, angie and i realised that peace and conflict would be quite interesting after all. pretty taxing to do, but, why not? we don't have other projects to complete anyway. might as well mke use of the opportunity to keep my brain active!! haha.
we're gonna do a newsletter.. so fun!! haha.. well... gotta learn how to use the programme first... haha.... so exciting... haha....
sigh... gotta write the first 2 journals for global citizenship now.... :):)

2005-03-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

im sick
again
this is so saddening
haha
looks like i'll be going to vietnam for global citizenship
might be working at a cocoa trees outlet
(chocolate... yummy!!)
but that's only if i get better
i wish i wasn't sick
my throat hurts.
yikes.
i love all my darling daughters
just
try not to be so retarded
be less like your mummy ok?
mummy is totally retarded..
haha......

2005-03-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

i don't know why it seems to me that everyone else's life is so much better than mine.. i guess it's one of those 'the grass is greener on the other side' cases. but perhaps this time, the grass really IS greener on the other side. everything has its pros and cons i guess.
people around me, they seem to have a lot going on, they seem to have so many problems, but then they seem to be able to solve their problems... a friend (lets call this friend A) told me that it's the way i see things. i should be able to put things aside and be happy. let it go. is this really the cause of my unhappiness. A said that god gives us obstacles to overcome. he nevers gives us anything we can't handle. then is it just me or does god think i can handle things that i feel i can't? sin is not directly proportional to a person's sufferings. but, what is? why is it that i feel that everyone seems to be having a better life than me? study wise, im not the best, im not the worst, im just... average. school wise, i'm not popular, not notorious, i'm just... really hated and i don't know why. health wise... need i say more? luck wise... im really down on it now... i closed the door of the car today... and i hurt my leg.... now... i can't walk properly..
A says that i should not pretend being happy. cos that's self denial. A doesn't understand why i take such a long time to heal, to get over things, to be happy. you know what? i don't understand too...
it's not like i don't want to be happy.
life is all about choices. i should choose to be happy. but if i don't feel happy and i choose to be happy, i have to pretend to be happy in order to show that i'm happy.
i'm still not happy.
i can't do it.
i have a total of one person i can trust.
just one.
i must learn to be alone and be happy.
can i do that? i don't think i can.
i need to be around people.
i need to have people to care.
i need to have real friends. not those who look like they are, but actually aren't.
i can't take it anymore.
i wish god didn't think i could take this.
because i can't
and i'm going to breakdown. going to? or already have? i'm not sure....

blah

2005-03-17T12:36:00.000+08:00

melancholic.
dysphoric.
poignant.
dejected.
heavy-hearted.
depressed.
perturbed
disturbed.
frustrated.

as you said... i'm always unhappy.....

depressed

2005-03-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

sigh.... i feel so depressed.... someone cheer me up...... its making me unable to concentrate on studying.... and my exams are in a few days.... sigh.......
*cries*

..

2005-03-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Man.. this test is soooo accurate.. typed out the results cos well.. the thing i copied and pasted from the website didn't come out right...

YOU ARE DEPRESSED

No doubt about it, you are feeling very down.
Maybe you have had a bad day, or maybe you need help.
Either way, make sure to take good care of yourself right now.

the second test's just... well... i dunno... haha... accurate too i guess...

YOUR BRAIN IS 73.33% FEMALE AND 26.67% MALE

Your brain leans female.
You think with your heart, not your head.
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver, but you are tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you.

.................................................................

2005-03-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

now you say it's my fault??
i've changed??
and you don't even bother to explain??
you say i've become less understanding??
have you seen how you've been treating me??
sigh.....
you said give you a minute...
it's been a day....
and you still havent given me your answer...

........

2005-03-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

you have changed so much...
you don't care anymore...
just because you have your '******* ********' (not swearing... just dun wanna say it out)
what about when times when you're in need?
at 1 am in the morning...
who was there for you?
whenever you need something...
who wakes up early to save your ass?
so that he who shall not be named won't scold you.
as much as you don't really care if he scolds you.
i know you respect him and you rather him not
so who ensures you have what you need?
it's not like i don't have people who care for me.
it's just that you mean a lot to me
is that so hard to see?
everyone else can see it.
why can't you?
whenever i need you to stand up for me, for something that is right...
you rather just keep quiet so that you don't offend someone...
because you like that person...
because she's important to you...
so what? are you catholic?
shouldn't you stand up for what is right?
you're standing up for the injustice of someone else...
that's what you're supposed to do right?
how can you watch the injustice and not do anything about it?
isn't that clearly stating that i am not important to you?
not one of your promises have you kept...
have i ever broken a promise to you?
i don't understand why...
why?
why?
why?

sick..

2005-03-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

oh man... exams are here.... and im sick..... yesterday... i threw up twice....... i've had a splitting headache since... since i can remember... haha... ok la.. maybe 2 days ago... its better now... but... not totally gone...

miss hernie asked me how i was feeling today... so sweet of her... i filled her in with unnecessary information... such as... 'i threw up twice yesterday'... haha.... she was like.. thanks a lot.. i was like.. *giggle giggle*... hahhaa.....

spent my break with hanah today... we found out that we had so much in common... like.. we both had toe surgery and removed the matrix.... we both have gigantic feet and are unable to find shoes that fit... (ok.. mine's bigger so i have a bigger problem with this... haha) so weird... haha.....

fabio is sick... coughing coughing.... dun pass to me ok??? haha... sicky fabio is going to help me slap that ungrateful person... hahaha....that *************** who treats me like shit.... says im important but doesn't treat me like so.... i go out of my way to help you... and this is the thanks i get? no sms, no call, always ignore me, you ask anyone.... everyone thinks that we're not close... that i'm not important to you... well... i hate you.... you make my life so miserable.... i hate the new you... you've changed so much... you don't keep your promises.... i don't get it... i still remember all the promises you made... you have not kept a single one.... if you hate me so much, if i'm that unimportant... don't keep me around just because you need stuff from me... because you need favours from me..... quotes my darling daughter michelle-->"what's your problem? not happy with life isit?" i don't deserve this la ok? i deserve better............... *cries*

tired...

2005-03-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

i am so so tired.... made use of my last day of MC and i came home to take a NAP... feel a little better after that la.... my body is so tired... it's killing me.... i ache all over... and i dont have any concentration when i study.... this is going to adversely affect my grades...

i have just realised what a mistake it was to continue working even though school started...i think it's made my grades what it is.... not desirable to me at all... it's too much to handle with choir and all.. the concerts.... the extra practices.....im a student... i should just focus on my studies.... i have realised that now.... i shall try my best to accept whatever grades i get and try not to be sad.... i'll make up for it next term...

poignant~~

lalala

2005-03-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

i'm like so broke.. need to get a job... but... im so lazy... and my body is so tired... sigh... rest is more important.. plus... global citizenship.. haha... i shall just be broke.... haha.... just read gabriel's blog about 'The young person's guide to the chorus'. Agree with quite a lot of things... haha... but...

WE DO NOT COMPLAIN THAT THERE ARE TOO MANY OF US THEREFORE WE CAN'T SING LOUDLY!!! for one thing, the alto note is in the middle and middle notes are always more difficult to be heard. (e.g. 3 part girl harmony, the higher and lower note can always be heard but it is so difficult to hear the middle note) so we can sing as loud as we want... haha... but... we don't want to drown others la..... we are considerate....
and by the way gabriel, i have worn jeans to concerts before... its just that i make it look classy... cos i have class..... unlike some people i know........
i can so sing an E flat... ( i think... you know better... well.. i can sing a C below middle C... so... ya....)
Its not an easy job to be a good alto. although sopranos say that it's a tough job hitting all those high notes... well... it's easier... because since the note is so high, you don't have a choice but to use the correct technique... it's like a natural thing (unless you're auch a bad soprano that you don't do that... then i have nothing to say..... ) The altos have to put so much effort into singing the lower range or not it's almost like speaking it. The altos also have so much more discipline than to talk during soprano solos. (unlike some people i know in some other section.... ok la.. so the altos in SFX don't dare... i'll kill them...) and don't worry gabriel... im not interested in becoming a bass..

crap...

2005-03-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

crap la.... im like failing everything.. i read all the math questions for the quiz wrongly today... zero marks... unless got a little bit of working marks... im so dead la.... sigh... ahh no mood to blog already... damn sad.... :'(:'(:'(:'(

dots

2005-02-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

im so pissed off today... shall not say why though... might get me into trouble... but well... tiffany.... i told you so... haha... dun wanna believe me... hahaha... ok la.. at least dinner was fun.... sherman and fabian are SO DAMN RETARDED!!! haha... and did i mention gay-ified? haha... they are so funny...haha....
havent blogged for so long... the week was so hectic.... 4 tests...one test next week... plus got presentation.... one for CSAS and one for arts apprciation which i havent planned.... i feel so dead... haha... i saw miss chung in gardens eating dinner yesterday... haha.... so exciting huh? haha.. lame... sigh... no mood to blog la... haha.... my sisters are making my look around victoriassecret.com cos my sisters feeling rich i think... haha....

love

2005-02-21T09:43:00.000+08:00

in conjunction with valentine's day, this weekends msg no.1 from denis was about love. ok. so i don't think he meant it to be in conjunction... but.. it was a coincidence...

St. Paul uses 2 words to describe what love is, 8 words to describe what love is not and 4 words to describe what love does.

msg no. 1
What love is... MakrothumEI [the real aramic word that was used]
translated to:
LOVE IS PATIENT
the word patient is actually derived from the word patient
patient means to be longsuffering toward one
love is suffering for people
it is directed to persons, not circumstances
it means bearing the shortcoming of others
that's the true translation of 'love is patient' in corinthians 13..........

msg no. 2
what love is not... paroxUnetai
translated to:
LOVE IS NOT QUICK TEMPERED
paroxUnetai means to provide, irritate, excite
quick temper: not to be confused with anger, quick temper is irrational behavior.
It stays in you for a long time.
sometimes, the reaction isn't immediate.
Being angry is NOT a sin. Be angry but DO NOT SIN [eph 4]
the anger of a parent causing him/her to discipline is ok
if a soldier sees the enemy killing all his counterparts and kills the enemy, that's ok
if the anger is in divine zeal, that's ok.
girls tend to be more quick tempered than guys as we're more petty. if a teacher says something bad to a girl student, she will remember it for life... a guy would forget it in 2 days. well, for majority of the girls.... and i think... everyone knows that i fall in this majority. haha. something i have to work on i guess.. girls are usually more petty. i don't deny.
7 WAYS TO COUNTERACT ANGER/QUICK TEMPER
1. Deny yourself. This means don't fight for your rights. Be 'chin chai'.
2. Don't expect people to be perfect, just as you are not perfect.
3. Walk away. but come back later to resolve things. This gives you time to calm down and be in the right state of mind when you come back to talk and settle the situation and ensures you do not say anything wrong.
4. Shut up. play some sports to diffuse your anger (it probably helps because of the release of endorphins)
5. PRAY! pray for guidance, pray for advice, pray for healing (this is most important, but it is not immediate)
6. Make allowances. give the other person the benefit of the doubt. clarify things before you do anything.
7. Count to 10 or 100 and see if the anger dissapates (only works for some people)
---- at all times.. try to be calm!! ----

cries

2005-02-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

i burnt my finger in bmic lab today!!!!!! it's so pain!!!!!

*cries*

2005-02-15T19:18:00.000+08:00

sigh... don't feel well today... giddy... woke up and decided i was going to skip the days lectures...went for arts tutorial though... was the model for the class.. haha... mask making.... it was like a facial. heh....

i am like so broke... spent like $30 on cab today... haha..... oh well... there goes my chinese new year ang pao cash... haha

there's charmed tonight on starworld.. alright!! nowhere near on completing the food chem project due next week though... sigh..... and need to do a presentation on an artist... sigh.... have no clue what im gonna do... haha.... sigh...... there's like so much work to do..... so little time... and exams are coming.... sigh......... i am so dead la....

valentine's

2005-02-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all!!

:)

2005-02-12T12:50:00.000+08:00

yay. chinese new year was like.. ok la. haha.. with the exception of having to do quite a lot of work.... haha... got back my bmic test paper... better than i expected..... but i realised that many careless mistakes cost me an A... but... just have to buck up la...

results for term test:

CSAS1: 19.5/25
Math n Stats : 42/50
Bmic: 37/50
BNF: 32/50
Food Chem: 32.5/50

all in all... i didn't do too shabby.. but i do need to buck up... i think now i know roughly how the papers are set and what they are looking for in answers... hopefully can do better la...
well... gotta go back to my formal report now..... still got lots of homework to do.... sian...

happy cny

2005-02-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

xing nian kuai le / happy chinese new year to all!!!!!

4/8 03' rocks my socks

2005-02-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

yay! today we had a mini gathering at swathi's house... cos the accident prone fool like broke her knee so to speak... ok, more like the ligaments....

it was so great to see everyone... at first, some people i asked said that they had stuff on and that they already saw her and they'll see... so i felt that everyone was gonna reject me so i decided it was good enough that serene and nad nor were going with me... then yay! christabelle and letitia came, followed by chelsa... then michelle and finally, aileen (we were all starving by the time she arrived....)

dinner was great... swat's mom is a great cook! we had so much fun, gossiping, talking about old times, talking about if anyone in our class has changed... it was just great! and swat of course had to scare us by dropping the air freshener in the toilet with a loud thud.... we so thought that she fell and went rushing out screaming 'swat are you alright????' haha... i had so much fun with you guys today....

love the earrings and bracelets swat.... hope you liked the pineapple tarts!! hahaha.... you should try the eggless ones.... their more crumbly.... more melt in your mouth...

i miss you guys so much..... today, i finally had coffee ice blended, i finally met up with 1/4 of the class... it was almost a class gathering.... it was GREAT!!! i love you guys so much... we should do it again... sad that we only get together when someone gets injured... but then again, swathi always gets injured.... there was the time with the stitches... and the other time with the knee.... the list goes on... i think you'll have a hard time finding insurance coverage babe.... hahahaha... i love you guys so much.... 4/8 03' is like the best!!! i love you guys so so so so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hugs and muacks 4/8 03'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dream...

2005-02-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

i hate dreams!! last night, i had a dream.. that i had the lowest mark in class and the cohort for bmic... that i got 5/50... ahahaha... damnit!!!! now im so damn scared... hahahahaha

still sick and crappy and cranky..... and i have to write an essay on lent.... i dont know where to start...

help.......

sick ol' me

2005-02-04T19:15:00.000+08:00

sigh... i feel so awful... im sick and cranky... hahaha
today i went back to ttsh to get my meds.... and like... oh man.. the people at the pharmacy are quite duh...... the doc prescribed me 5mg of sth... and they were like its supposed to be 10mg.... so they made me wait for more than an hour because they were trying to reach her and they couldn't... urgh.. for one thing... if the doctor prescribed 5mg she definately has a reason right... duh.... i told them to just give me the medicine and i'll go and ask her myself.... so i did... AND IT WAS DAMNIT 5 mg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so well... got back math today... got 39/50.... well... but they didn't mark my box plot... could have drawn everything right and hand it in... but im such a goodie right? haha... well... got 32/50 for Basic Nutrition and Food (BNF)... and 32.5 for Food Chem(FC).... 23/25 for Managing Data using Statistical Software(MDSS)... i'm doing so badly... wonder whats up with me... didn't get back basic microbiology Bmic) the 'teddy bear' (mr loh) wasn't in school today..... according to miss sajini, the science cohort as a whole did pretty well... however...... the food science cohort did very badly.... something about our brains and the way we think... and apparently... ta01 only had 1 person who passed... (kudos to ryan the smarty who now has to give me tuition) i hope i pass..... sigh.......

i dun think im going to church tmr guys.... i feel too sick... see you next week or sth ok??? *hugs* i'll miss all of you esp my spasticated retarded daughters! *hugz*

sniffle sniffle

2005-02-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

almost done with your earring thing nic.... well.... i need to get some super glue though..... haha....
my nose is going sniffle sniffle sniffle... still went for bmic lab... wownder if i should have stayed home to rest... dont think im well enough to go to work tmr... sigh....
getting back math and bmic tmr... im scared... hahahaha... somebody hold my hand... hahaha.....
i feel like eating ice cream... yummy yummy ice cream..... feel like going to the zoo to eat ben and jerry's at the parlour.... hahahaha... anyone wanna take me??? hahahahaha

sicksicksick

2005-02-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

sigh.... went to the doctor today... got the flu... doctor forgot to give me medicine for the flu... gave me my dailies though.... so ya, got a 2 day mc... but then, i realised that i have to go for tmrs practical.... sigh......

i am so so sick.... this sucks... doc says that my liver function is abnormal again.... this is so sucky..... i am tired... haha... i want to sleep.... haha... good night everyone... my liver needs rest... haha.....

today....

2005-02-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

well... today was pretty ok... i bought some stuff... earrings and a necklace for myself and sth for nic... (its not sth u can wear nic... stop guessing/trying to get it out of me). anyway... yea... went home with liza today... talked to her about how school sucked... it was pretty great to get it out... thanks so much!!

im so so so so tired..... gotta go to the doctor tomorrow *bites nails* and there's no BNF tutorial... so there's like an extra 2 hr break in between math and food chem... (not fun at all)

i've gotta go to work tmr.... i don't feel like it.... sigh....

did badly for term tests... miss mah asked me how come i was getting such low marks.... i am so dead.....

----- demoralised -----

sigh.... [p a r t 2]

2005-01-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

today really sucked....
i dunno what's come over me... i saw tiff today... and i just hugged her... and burst into tears.... i think i must have scared her or sth... sorry and thanks dear.... my life is like so screwed up la....
sigh... no mood to continue...

sigh....

2005-01-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

back to school tmr..........
my life really sucks....

Poignant

2005-01-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

today was tiring... went to church... sing sing sing... getting sore throat.... sigh...oh well.... had dinner with my little darlings today.. well.. it was one screwed up dinner... the original plan was for trishy daph mishy celeste andrea and little domi and myself to go for dinner... however, the plans were changed and we were put as finale item... so all the kids ended up wanting to go together.... in the end... the younger ones decided they wanted to eat macs (they should watch super size me over and over again!!!) and then the rest of us were going to chompchomp... then... we found one table... and we were looking for another one, then we split into 2 groups... and the other group decided to go eat that teochew mui thingy (dunno how to spell it) then so.. yea... i actually found another table but they were gone... so everyone was all whatever at everyone else... and i was just like sigh.......

oh yea. and... so funny... brought dominic to buy ice kachang... and the uncle selling it thought i was his mother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so funny... hahahahaha...

then... someone is angry at me... during the performance... joshua and i were talking on stage... sigh... i cant believe that we did that... so unprofessional... but we did... sigh.... poignant....

the performance... was... ok la.... then... ya... going home... i wanted to take bus out of gardens and then change to 53.... but no...... fabian had to go walk out... it was so damn tiring and my feet were all blistering la.... (urgh.. fabian... pang seh king...) well... today mark was the pang seh one... never even come for choir... (roar!!) anyway.... i guess it was ok that i walked out la....made fabian carry my stuff... then... gabriel came to talk to me... (thanks gab).. well... it did make me feel a little better.... it's amazing how who actually cares.... someone who insists i'm important only comes to me for help... doesn't communicate with me... then insists that these other people are important.... then when he needs help he says those people will say 'what are you bothering me with this for?'... im surprised that these type of people are more important than i am, doesn't reply my msgs.... say call... but after 3 weeks also never call... say meet me online... after a few hours still not there... then sms and the reply will be sorry busy... cannot... i dunno la.. my life is so damn screwed up.... school sux... church sux... urgh! and someone is angry at me!! :(:(:(:(:(

poignant

melancholic

dysphoric

despondant

sigh.......

ScHoOOooOoL

2005-01-28T14:41:00.000+08:00

yay! i managed to bake some tarts... gave some to ser... she was like... omigosh, fats.. haha... like.. dots!! haha... ts was so fun to catch up with ser and jobeth.... ser brought a friend too. ling. haha.... man... it was so fun... we just walked around doing nothing much la actually... haha.. but it was ok....

sigh... ser.... STOP SMOKING!!!! you want to kill me and those around you including yourself isit??? haha... it's BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks jobeth, for being on my side and stopping ser from smoking... haha.. and also for leaving with me :):):):)

haha... man... i keep screwing up... today, i went to school at 7.45.... only to realise class was at 8.45!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dots!!!!!!!!!!!!!

global citizenship was fun... more questions... less answers.... hahahahaha... miss marie chan's damn fun.... haha... might not be able to go to vietnam though..... well.. hopefully there won't be anymore bird flu by the time we're supposed to go.... :):)

chose my cross disciplinary subjects today...
1. basic accounting
2. productivity and quality service
3. understanding expressions of culture
4. introduction to psychology
5.colour and composition

well... accounting's apparently a pain in the neck.... but... its good to know basic accounting when going to the working world... i wanted to do psychology, but, i decided that accounting's more helpful for now... hahaha.... i wanted to take OTCM (Over The Counter Medications) which would be helpful... but it wasn't available... poignant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.... oh well... working later.... lalalalalalalalalalalala

PiNeAppLe TaRTs

2005-01-27T10:22:00.000+08:00

i have just realised that the Previous entries Posted all have a title starting with P... and... it's not on Purpose... hahaha.... so cool... haha... yesterday when i told wee seng that i got another blog, he said... 'so how long is this one going to last?' i replied ' dunno? depends on my mood' hahaha..... im estimating it'll be about... 5 months and i'll delete the blog or something. haha!! we'll see ok wee seng? we'll see.....

went for a blood test today.... Pain!!! and it was like so early in the morning... i reached the hospital at... 745... and the place was closed!!!!!!!!! hahaha.... and then i was such a DOOFUS!!! after my blood test, i just happily walked out of the place and left...... leaving my card at the counter...... and then when i reached the mrt, i realised i forgot it.... so i had to walk all the way back to get it.... dots... this is just not my day.....

when i came home, i realised my mom told my maid to cook roast chicken for lunch today.... after i told her like a million times that i am going to bake Pineapple tarts today... just great.... so anyway.... i said roast the chicken first, then we can clean out the oven and bake... so i can't finish baking the tarts today.... gotta bake maybe 2 batches... maybe i'll bake the next one on sunday.... oh well....

6 more hours to seeing serene.............
Peh.....

PaStrY

2005-01-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

i never knew how little ingredients and how easy pastry was to make. haha....

the supermarket tour was soooooo LAME!!! it was quite a waste of time... haha.. ok.. i was early..... well... thought i needed time to find the place... and well.. i found it. haha.. so i was just standing there and then mrs c. came from behind me and said "you're early" man was i freaked out. hahaha mrs c kinda scares me... well.. she doesn't teach me anything... so... that's good i suppose. i wonder how she knows me... probably recognizes me from around... probably the specs.... hahaha... anyway.... yea.... fiona and nufail were late.... haha.... so we ended late.... our 3 seniors.... had a lot to say too... so we ended late... well.. ok la.... hahaha.... its good for us i guess....

i am dreading tomorrow morning... looking forward to tomorrow evening...

another dreaded blood test tomorrow morning... 8 am... i actually have to make an appointment to get blood drawn out of me... can you imagine.. sigh... sadness... BUT.... tomorrow evening i'm going out with SERENE!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss her!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh the last time i saw her was.... my birthday last year (it was a wonderful surprise babes... thanks!!).... and she just got back from aussie on saturday and i am FINALLY going to see her again... yay!!!!! hahahahaha.... i can't wait!!.... i love you meh!

PiNeAppLe JaM

2005-01-26T10:58:00.000+08:00

good morning... i am so tired. made pineapple jam yesterday... well... my maid and i split the work... but it still took like... close to 7 hours... woah... tiring... but well... it's worth it. i'm waiting for my dad to come home, he's supposed to help me with the pastry, ok, he needs to teach me how to do it cos he makes pastry differently? well.. it tastes better... so i'm waiting... haha...

at 2.30, im supposed to be at the supermarket... for a supermarket tour... for school... how lame can this get? well... i'm going with fiona and nufail from CST... they are such dolls.. i've known them for like... only a short while... nufail only a few days.... but... they are so nice to me... unlike some other people i know... i hate school.......

well... im going to prepare the stuff for the pastry... dad says he's coming home in half an hour...............

Pilot entry

2005-01-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

I have just realised how distant i've gotten from all my friends... or those who used to be my friends. No one communicates... all their thoughts and emotions are typed into an online diary... for all to see... everyone knows what their feeling... true friends or not...

' we build more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever,
but have less communication'

the paradox of our times.......................